Life likes to make a fool of people don’t they? Haha making me remember the past one by one, every single night as i lie to sleep, images flash to me.

Remember how i said to you in the car? That i have already thought of how i want to propose to you when we grow up? I could see that cheeky smile at that time.  Remember how you got angry when i joked around telling you that i lost my wallet? Remember every trip home on bus5?? Remember how i teared when you had your first day of school? Tearing up was the one thing i never expected myself to do. For you, i teared.

I suddenly miss all these, from the quarrels we had and that silly or crazy you playing around. Actually i miss everything that has you. I still have a box of things that we had last time, i didn’t throw it away. I now realise i love some things because it was some how related to you. Memories that i so don’t want it to be. I want it to be real. But it’s too late.

This few days have been tough for me, never felt so lost and tough at all. I so much want to find a solution to this problem, but, there’s no way it can be solved. I feel so helpless, but?? I brought this all on myself, all these shit. Blame me for being this childish, this foolish. Who can i blame but myself? I don’t blame you for hating me, because i deserve it. I’m not asking for anything in return, i’m ashamed of myself already. I just want to sliently protect you and know that you’re safe.

I love you, but it’s all too late for me….

* 感情在风雪里流逝的太快
快的就连再见都没说完
抓紧彼此的手 我们却还是走散

** 你不必再爱我 你尽管放开
反正时间总会把爱冲淡
至少我学会了 爱情就没再遗憾
你不必再爱我 谁也别为难
让我怀念一回 我会离开
转身对你挥手 不让眼泪流下来

Repeat *,**

你不必再爱我 我学着释怀
原来相爱总比想念短暂
至少我记住了 你的笑有多灿烂
你不必再爱我 谁也别心软
你留下了什么 我都不还
拥抱所有温暖 就像你还在身旁

那一句我爱你 我们都说得
太晚

I feel really sad when i think that i can only love you by this way? But what can i do? It’s really the best way and the only way.

I’ll still always be waiting for you silently, because you teach me what’s love.

I know i’m such a dick writing all these now. I know i’m such a fucken saying all these now. I don’t expect her to forgive me. I don’t expect for a second chance. Because i know i’m such a fuck ruining someone’s life like nothing. I’m such a idiot who doesn’t think through things. I keep having the urge to talk to you again. But i don’t dare. And i do not have that right. I ruined your life like this, what gives me the right to talk to you. I do not have that courage to talk to you. I keep telling myself i hope that i do not bump into you, because if i do, i’ll run. I do not know how to face you.

Just a sorry from me, cannot solve things. It’s just so complicated.

I don’t know how i can seek your forgiveness, but better not. I am fucken.

Just that i miss everything about you.

Your smile, the silly actions that you’ll do, how naive you are, how much you love photography, when you desperately wanted an iphone, your s.h.e collection, the way you cared for me, the way you controlled me.

I lost all these things, which i can’t get back at all…

I’m sorry had to write this here. Have no other place to say all these.

How am i going to tell you?

I enjoy the company of you. Is this really life? Is this really fate? Am i really alive?

我喜欢你的眼 看着我的眼
我喜欢你的脸 贴着我的脸

我喜欢你的手 牵着我的手
我喜欢你的口 吻着我的口
时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去
因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃爱情
友情这段得来不易
我爱你 真的是很爱你 所以想
就这样继续爱下去

Despite the passing of time, I still remember every single slightest detail about you … that’s love?

I need love stories to make me believe again.

” While you were sleeping soundly, you said ‘ I Love You ‘ . The next morning i didn’t tell you anything because I wanted to be the first one to do that. “